KEEP TALKING

The past week was interesting. I had a couple of days when old thoughts and feelings were creeping in on me. I was trying to deny it and go on, but finally had to fess up because I was getting grumpy with everyone and Owen was really wondering what was up.

After much prayer and talking it through I realized that since I had told everyone about what had happened in my life I had created an expectation on myself that I now had to "live up to my deliverance". What a stupid lie! So after identifying it I know how to defeat it. I have realized the truth that no one expects me to live up to it and no one is offended if I ask for prayer.

God has talked to me and told me that I have to continually bring it all to Him to deal with. Satan is not finished harassing me just because I have had breakthrough. He is probably going to try harder now that I know God has a plan for me. I have been struggling with asthma this week too and not to overspiritualize things, but I think it is an attack as well. I believe that he (Satan) will do whatever he can to get me down. He probably knows God has a big plan and I can promise you it will not be to his benefit!

I can assure you that I have a fight in me that nobody has seen for a very long time. I would love for everything to be easy and simple, but since that is not reality, I am stoked to get it on! I am ready to fight. It sure helps to have the security of believing that God has got my back! (He told me so!) And it is very nice to be hearing Him when He talks to me. So, Lord, keep talking.

P.S. My parents got the house, but I still do not know when they will be leaving as they do not yet know. I think they close May 18th. (?) Keep praying for direction for me and Owen. Please just pray for God's will and for us to hear clearly. We are hearing some things from God, but we are not totally sure. This is one of the biggest decisions we have faced in our marriage. The idea of moving is exciting while totally terrifying and most of all we want to be in God's will. Remember: He has a big plan for us and we want to be in the best place to carry it out!

I love you all and have been missing the Coker and Johnson families so much lately. Jenell and Jen, please tell your families "hey" for me and give the kids my love.