SURVIVAL

i made it! sundance is over for me and i have survived with only a little wear and tear. i did come down with strep in the middle and lost a day and half of work which cost us some money, but oh well. over all i think i did pretty well and am just glad that it is over and looking forward to relaxing next weekend with my BFFs.

it is funny how disconnected one can become when they work nonstop. i am so glad that i am not a workaholic. what a miserable life that would be. i enjoy my family and friends too much for that.

anyway, i look forward to reconnecting with all of you in the coming weeks now that i am part of the world again.

DRUGS

i want you to all stop worrying. i'm sure you've probably been losing sleep, etc. and i am so sorry about that. just kidding, but i got my prescription for the meds i need and therefore the risk of my mental termination is gone. i have only been back on for a day and a half. team that with a good workout, a hot shower, a sunny day and the hope of recovery and i feel so much better already. i feel like i can breathe again. this is not to say that the next couple of weeks may not still be hard, but i feel like an addict who got her fix! at least my drugs are legal.

that's it for today. i love you all.

INSPIRATION

I want to write to inspire and bring hope, but I don't feel anything right now. I apologize for the lack of anything interesting to say.

As I look down at my hands trying to think of something of worth to share I spot a ring on the middle finger of my right hand. It is a gold ring with a very small diamond in the upper right corner and an R inscribed on it which is barely legible any more. My daddy gave me this ring. The stone it holds was my grandma's engagement diamond! She gave this ring to him when he was 16 I think. As I looked at it I was pondering all the things this ring has seen. You know, like the saying "if walls could talk", I'd love to hear what my ring has to say.

I think it would be so cool if we could hop in a time machine and travel around to see our parents past and whatever other sorts of things might interest us. It could be very interesting!

I hope you are all finding fabulously interesting things in your every day lives. Please continue to pray for my endurance. I feel very tired.

Much intense love to all of you. XOXO